good afternoon it is 5 pm and i spent all day coding ts website bruh im cooked for real.
***SUICIDE MENTIONED AGAIN**** ok its 8 pm now and i lowkey took a break for a little bit it was lowkey a waste of time liek bruh i was thinking about how i should be showering rn but my Mental shower time is. 8 pm. So i couldnt get up. whats even the point of this madness. i lowkey didntbring enough clothes to my dads house so i will have to #fitrepeat which is unfortunate. and NO that dam hotel hasnt called me back whch is probably ok bc i need time to . update my passport that has been expired for years and also get an id which i dont have because idk whenevr i tried to like go on the dmv site on either my phone or laptop it just breaks so i couldnt like. schedule anything or however that works. however that was nearly 1 year ago so i will try again later today after my shower. i need an id so i can legally drink in mexico. jk DONT become an alcoholic you guys its not right. *sigh* is every day of summer gonna feel like this... like im just wasting all my time... this is a useless life... is what i would say if i was a LOSER and a GIVER UPPER but no actually i been contemplating suicide a really weird amount recently and it lowkey makes me feel liek a trendhopper like ok everyone is killing themselves youre not special LMFPODPASOJD but i really cant do it not soon anyway . if i WERE to kill myself it would have to be after my mom Naturally passes away. which is actually too sad to think about idk why im going on about this. DONT MAKE YOUR MOMS SAD GUYS!!!!!!! im just pathetic so i will keep living even if its miserable...